I learned to turn my creativity into the only God I could believe in-- the God of creativity. I learned to get out of the way and let that creative force work through me. I learned to just show up at the page and write down what I heard. I didn't have to be in the "mood," I didn't have to take my emotional temperature. I simply wrote. No negotiations-- good, bad?-- none of my business. I wasn't doing it. By resigning as the self-conscious author, I wrote freely.